...Which is, of course, a sign that this is going to be me ranting and whining, so feel free to leave now, and if not...well, don't say I didn't warn you.

School sucks. Why does school suck? For one thing, it fucks over my schedule really, really badly. Unless I'm really really dead, I can't fall asleep before ten, usually more around eleven, occasionally up to midnight and one am. I function best on at least ten hours of sleep a night, although more is preferable. Getting up at six am, I'm not getting that. Which means I'm really dead to the world for the first few hours of the day, and lethargic the rest of it, which means I don't get anything done. With the amount of the day it takes up, I don't have the time to do the things I want to do, like maybe actually having a life.

Then there's also the work. Most of my teachers were pretty good about the trip, but my English teacher wants me to make up two essays I missed. Note that everyone else got a good three or four days apiece on these. I wouldn't mind if we didn't have a major project due this Friday, three book reports due next Friday, and another essay sometime in between.

Moving on to another subject - costumes. Halloween costume still needs a lot of work. I'd be able to finish it for sure if I didn't have all the English, but now I'm not certain. Also, NE_COSP is having a winter photoshoot, with a magical girl theme. I want to do a Xmas-Hokuto, and as it's not technically magical girl, although in the spirit, I ask if it's okay. Ang says yes, so I go and buy the fabric. Koumori, though, feels the need to take over planning for this, and says no way. Which leaves me with $30 worth of fabric that I can't use for anything else unless I come up with another character.

Last thing. Basically my problem versus anyone else's fault, but this is my blog and I can whine about whatever the hell I like. The Yaoicon crowd is back, and there's at least two different friends of mine going 'Awww, I miss my Yaoicon buddies so much already! I can't wait to see all you guys again!', repeatedly. And I'm sitting here thinking 'Hello, ever think that there are other people who miss you guys too and can't wait to see you again, people who sort of can't go to Yaoicon because of state laws'. And Shari's all, 'Oh, come to Sakuracon!' even though it's a $440 plane ticket, never mind other expensives, right in the middle of the school year, and I can't travel by myself. And she knows this. And in a way, that hurts, because I miss everyone as much as she does. Reminding me how much I miss them, and how chances are it'll be years (not exagerating here. Next likely chance is when I'm old enough for Yaoicon in three years) before I see them again, versus everyone else in April. And that hurts a lot too.

Yes, I know I'm being whiny, petty, oversenstive, and somewhat attention-wanting. You know what? At the moment, I don't give a damn. If you were planning on point out any of those things, or something along those lines, kindly fuck off. I've been in a bad mood since yesterday morning, and I don't need people telling me what a horrible person I am when I know I am already.